| Meme train? |
[January 21st 2009|10.54pm] |
all aboard the meme train!
The first ten people to respond to this post will get something made by me!
My choice.
For you.
This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:
* I make no guarantees that you will like what I make!
* What I create will be just for you.
* It'll be done this calendar year.
* I reserve the right to do something extremely strange.
* You have no clue what it's going to be.
The catch: you have to put this in your journal as well. Spread the creativity around!
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| The future |
[September 26th 2008|7.03am] |
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I don't post often, however, I figured I should document this in someway, and considering the 'computer age' I live in. This seemed appropriate.
I am considering a career in the Air Force.
That is all.
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| Realizations. |
[August 11th 2008|2.52pm] |
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Realizations are the worst and best things ever. When you wake up or you're just sitting around and suddenly it hits you... something is something.
Today I discovered that I feel as if I am losing a lot of my older friends. Those friends are either failing to see how they are hurting me, or choose to no longer care.
I also discovered that I miss a few people in ways that... maybe I shouldn't miss them? A part of me says it's not worth it, you moved on so keep walking forward. The other part dares me to find a time I was happier in my life.
I wonder sometimes how you can care so much about certain people, and then wake up one day to realize it was all for nothing.
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| Mystic Realms |
[October 14th 2007|3.38pm] |
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Something about the game has lost it's luster. I don't hate the game, but the problems that keep arising and don't get taken care of have brought me to a lack of faith in the games administrative system. Knowing that dispite informing the chain-o-command about issues that come up result in a mere wrist slap even after it happening 10-15 times really makes the game not fun anymore...
So I'm here at a cross roads now.
Is it time I move on?
I would probably miss it a little bit, but there are people at the game who almost purposely seek to make my time, and the time of my friends and loved ones there a nightmarish hell. It's not worth the money to go to an event only to have people attempt to physically harm my girlfriend, give me attitudes about absloutely everything I do, bitch and moan about game mechanics and rules that are FINE THE WAY THEY ARE. Having said annoying and rude people cheese/target you whenever they can...
It's just so disheartening, the spark that was Mystic Realms is fading in my eyes.
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| wii update |
[March 6th 2007|6.32pm] |
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jerry made me look at porn on my wii i hate him...
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| Shameless Plug |
[January 20th 2007|9.58pm] |
Hey!
I recently became involved in a business endever with my girlfriend and her father's business. We sell Candles and I was wondering if I could interest you in any.
Princes are $10 Container (12oz Diamond Tumbler, or 12oz Tumbler)
$8 3x3 Piller
Scents are Jasmine, Vanilla, Strawberry, Lavander, Rachel's Rose, and Tropical Fantasy are the scents.
Let me know if you are interested! We are only recieving a limited first shipment. So let me know! First come, First serve!
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| Fuck |
[December 15th 2006|1.02am] |
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FUCK THIS ENTIRE YEAR.
AND FUCK NEXT YEAR TOO.
FUCK EVERYTHING, SERIOUSLY. FUCK IT.
I GIVE UP.
i try
and try
and i can't win
Fuck it, I give up
You win.
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| Fucking A... |
[September 26th 2006|9.39am] |
I went to class... now I remember why I hated going to class... urgh.
Stupid teacher talking about attachments and virus' and stupid stuff I learned in 4th grade in computer lab while using Math Fuckin' Blaster. Jesus Christ!
I have Orientation today at 5pm but I have Computer Lit. from 4:35 - 5:50, so I have to go late... I might say fuck Comp. Lit. and goto Orientation on time, so I can also show them when I can and can not work.
Anyway... I miss Jenn.
Out.
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| I love... |
[August 30th 2006|10.27pm] |
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| ...alone in santa cruz... |
[August 11th 2006|5.09pm] |
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The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face Down |
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Did I ever tell you that I really love you and I think about you all day?
I really miss you and wish I could kiss you, but why are you so far away?
Since you've been gone, I've thought over and over about you inside my head
and where I went wrong, where I went wrong.
Every day, I've been thinking a lot about all of the things you'd say since I went away, since I went away...
I guess I could call you and ask you "How are you?" but I really don't have much to say...
I sit all alone and I stare at the phone and I hope that you're doing ok.
So... the past year almost has been so turmoil and drama filled. I was reading back at all my old livejournal entries and about how happy I was before all of this, and now I am sitting here contemplating what happened with my life. Where did that happiness go? I am happy now, but I am still wondering about myself, and my life and what happened... what changed.
I think I need to get away sometimes. I just came out of a relationship... and honestly I don't know what to think of it. I mean it's only been about a week and now I am hearing rumors she already is moving towards someone else, which wouldn't bother me if I didn't try so hard to put that reputation out of my head. Everybody told me that she was like this, but I didn't want to believe it. It makes me wonder if when she said she loved me, she meant she loved me... or the idea of being with someone. It really just sucks I guess.
I am thinking of heading down to Seaside or something eventually... just to kinda sit down and rethink my life up to now. I mean it's been so different, writing about how much I was waiting for Warped Tour last year, with all the people I never see anymore, to going to... whatever I do from day to day, almost like I stopped looking foward to the future.
I guess in the end everything always works out. One of my old friends once told me "If it's not okay, then it's not the end, so keep looking foward to a better tomorrow, because once you hit rock bottom you can only go up."
My friends are fucking awesome. Everybody else can fuck off and die.
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| War... |
[August 11th 2006|3.44pm] |
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The side of Justice and Light has grown unexpectingly. Our numbers are vast and incorporate Key members of FWAP, the Marauders, The Orignal Kingdom by the Sea, The Land of Mountains and Bears, and other upstanding people who have no dillusions of running the world of owning anybody within it. We look to bring a swift end to this war leaving but little bloodshed behind. We fight for the truth of the world, against the dark side.
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| The First Stone has been cast... |
[August 11th 2006|1.44am] |
War too those who believe they have the right to dictate the fate of those around them. We have met in private and we will become mighty. Shun us from your list, for when the smoke settles all who wish it will be free.
If you want a war
You shall have it.
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[May 2nd 2006|6.12pm] |
I did for Liam, so.... Woot.
1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours
on a side note...
HOLY SHIT I UPDATED!!!!!
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| Post-Con |
[January 23rd 2006|10.04am] |
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Well. I got back from the con around midnight. I spend over $300, had a great time. I am in Comp. Lit. now, easiest class ever. MR is next weekend, CAN'T WAIT! DALE RANGER WOOT WOOT! Griz is goin' down. Anyway, I am going to finish this class then head to the bookstore, sell some shit and get some cash in my account which is like -50 bucks right now. -.- This class is sick easy. I am in the back and just pwning. I am also offical webmaster of Mystic Realms now. I can't WAIT to get to work. Anyway I am gonna wrap this up, not too much to talk about.
-Empire of Tyrs
-Cthulu Live
-Supers
Goodness.
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| No Sleep! |
[January 15th 2006|9.02am] |
Alright, well in keeping up with the updates. Liam is asleep on the small couch. Ted on the big couch. Jesse in the corner. Al in the opposite corner. Coley and Nick dead in front of me. I am alone and awake. My computer died for some reason and I'm kinda upset about that, it gave me an "Error loading Operation System" so I am reformatting it. I decided to move my room back into the medium room, use the large room for a living room and weapon making station <3. Yeah, well I have not very much to talk about other than I wish people were awake. It snowed, and I can' get Liam home because my car can NOT handle in this. Al's can, so I am paying him 30 to get Liam home. Today is going to be a CLEAN, CLEAN, CLEAN day, Taking a few hours to vaccume and completely clean up the place, then re-arrage and redecorate... maybe a trip to the mall to blow some cash on some cool room items. I need a curtain, maybe I'll hang the pirate flag over the window. Murphy fucking Rocks.
I should find a way to sleep.
Well, my friends are FUCKING AWESOME! ^_^ Night world.. er.. Day.
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| Southern Cross |
[January 15th 2006|1.01am] |
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403 - Nothern Lights |
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"And as I stared into the abyss, the emptiness infront of me seemed to swirl like artistic poetry. I took a step back from the ledge and opened my eyes for the first time in my life. I finally understood my purpose." - Me.
I have decided to finally write another entry. I will let everybody know right now, that what I right is my own opinion. If you don't like it, fuck ya. Don't read my shit.
I am listening to Southern Cross by 403. Liam and the others are watching Futurama in the other room. Random drama flying around. Not my problem.
I don't have much I want to say. School starts up soon. Conventention next weekend. Event the weekend after that.
I want the event to come so badly. I want my weekend break from reality. I want school to start, I want to just hang out with a few friends.
I have a great life, and I won't compromise it for anybody. I have a feeling that people take things I say too seriously. This is not my problem either. I'm sorry if I am not your best friend and I always know exactly what to say. I'm sorry if you think that sometimes I am not a great person. If I'm not a great person, maybe I should stop trying for you, stop caring so damned much.
Thanks for blowing me off. I don't care though. 10 hours ago I cared. Not now.
Alright, I'm gonna wrap this up and watch Nightmare City or something. Maybe play some Diablo II.
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| Yeah... This is awesome. |
[September 12th 2005|2.44am] |
Instructions:
-- Write a statement for 20 people you know, some statements can go to more than one person.
-- Never tell which one is for who
1. You need to swallow your pride once in a while
2. I love you, and that will never change.
3. I wish I could give you the world, but all I can give you are concert tickets...
4. You try so hard to impress people, they will like you for who you are.
5. You've taught me a lot, and I wish things were different.
6. I'm going to miss you, and I wish you never left my life.
7. We've been through so much, our friendship is still strong, and I'll always be your friend.
8. Your one of the only people who saw me through my darkest days.
9. I'm glad you broke my heart, it was a long overdue wake up call.
10. Although we're friends, I'll never forgive you.
11. I wish that I wasn't so nice to you, in the end you didn't deserve it.
12. I like you, I don't know why, and even though you know, we will only be friends.
13. Man... your my brother.
14. If you die, I die that's the way it is.
15. Your skating on thin ice, don't you dare hurt my friends.
16. I hope that I mean as much to you as you do to me.
17. I never meant for us to be this way, but in the end it was all we could be.
18. I hate when you talk shit about my best friend...
19. Fucking die... Really, nobody wants to hear your shit sap stories.
20. I love you, you don't love me... but that's alright, and I mean it.
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| Yup.. |
[August 31st 2005|1.32pm] |
1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.
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| Stuff... yeah.... boredom |
[August 27th 2005|6.55pm] |
| Your Power Color Is Lime Green | 
At Your Highest:
You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary.
At Your Lowest:
You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in.
In Love:
You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated.
How You're Attractive:
Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room.
Your Eternal Question:
"What else do I need in my life?" |
| Your Mood Ring is Purple | 
Sensual
Clear mind
Purpose is known |
| Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating | 
You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.
But you may be ready in a couple of years.
You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.
And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility. |
| You Are a Mai Tai | 
You aren't a big drinker, but you'll drink if the atmosphere is festive.
And when you're drunk, watch out! You're easily carried away. |
| Your Hidden Talent |  You have the power to persuade and influence others.
You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around.
The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it.
Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think! |
The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
| In a Past Life... | 
You Were: A Friendly Mathematician.
Where You Lived: Korea.
How You Died: Hung for treason. |
The True You | | You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. | | With respect to money, you are a bit stingy. | | You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities. | | The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you. | | You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. | | When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out. |
You Have Fantastic Karma |
You are a kind, sensitive, and giving person.
And all your good deeds will pay off - if they haven't already.
But you're not so concerned with what you get in return anyway.
You have an innate caring nature - and nothing can change that! |
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